the other side of heaven

today is a day I have been waiting for, when I finally feel like me again.

"me". again. hahha
I'm not being selfish anymore, focusing on my own problems. In these past couple weeks, I've kind of lost myself in all "the madness", trying to figure out where exactly my place is in all that's been happening, while still trying to take care of myself.
But even though I've been trying my hardest to keep my sensitivity towards others, I haven't been caring for them as much as I usually do. And it's really sad, because I've felt it. I've felt myself being less caring, and it's horrible to say that I ignored it. I ignored the opportunity to try and do what Jesus would do.

Some people say it's easier to just not care, but how could it be easier to be stuck with the guilt of knowing you could have been the one to make someone smile, or make somebody's day, which could truly change their life !!

I'm okay now. It's true, the month of February always just SUCKS. I wanted to wait til tomorrow to b-log, but I figured I could at least end this crappy month with a BANG
hhaha

I've been lucky enough to find some reallllyy great people in my life, who have come and 'lifted' me, I guess, at just the right time. Being in my comfort zone will get.me.NOwhere.
There are people that care for me, and want to see me happy, as I do them.
There IS a plan, and I know God has put these people in my path to not only help keep me happy, but safe and true to myself.

There is nothing better than being your best self-not only FOR yourself, but for God who did not waste useless talents and strengths on you.

:)