Hey now..

In the matter of 20 years being a VERY. dramatic person
and in the matter of 1 week, everything has seemed to fall apart and together at the same time.

Of course, not everything has fallen apart. But when I go through a trial, I tend to put all of my attention and energy on what I'm going through, rather than putting my energy on what I am still blessed with.

"In trials, never blame God, and never ask 'why'. Having faith gives you the knowledge that everything will be alright. 'I know what I know, and that can't be taken from me through ANY trial.' There is only one who can turn anger into complete gratitude when His plan is understood."

Far, Far

I haven't been on this in awhile
wel it's been awhile to Me hah.. I feel more alive not relying on something to give me something to do like this
or Myspace. I really don't feel much different after deleting it to be completely honest. It just forces me to do SOMEthing, rather than sit in front of the computer. I go outside a LOT more, which I like doing more anyway

I went to San Diego on Saturday. It was BEAUTIFUL down there.
It's kind of funny being content in this city, and then going out and realizing how much more there is, like I always wanted to.
The sun down there was so bright and the air seemed S0 much clearer than ours..
there was so much to do, and so much LIFE

but I think I'm just one of those people that would get tired of all that 'life' constantly.
I like the quiet out here, without all the forest or w/e is usually tied into quiet towns. haha

I'm learning to become more content with myself also..
mostly because I keep praying, and praying, and PRAYING for it
it'll happen, I know it will eventually. it has to.

ahhhhhhhhheodhaledfhcqwoexn239934nc903n !!!