This is quite possibly
the hardest I've cried. in SO long.
Of course I know everything will be okay, but saying goodbye was so hard.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Thursday, April 22, 2010
never in my life
never would have thought I would be right here
being treated how I believe every girl in this world deserves to be treated
I never would have thought I would be so emotional,
and at THAT, be able to have so many emotions going through me at once. My mind is blank, yet so much has gone through it today, I couldn't tell you one thing I was supposed to learn at school today.
What keeps grounding me when I start to feel like a failure in school, though, is the fact that
"we're all gonna die eventually anyway"
hahah
school will work itself out. life will work itself out.
Even though money may be wasted.. energy may be wasted. Life will keep going. And having that knowledge is truly what seems to be so important right now.
I have finally started to understand how little it matters what people think of you.
How, as long as you are trying your hardest to be your best self, no other thought, or word, or persecution can alter you.
You tried your best. You're giving as much as you can.
As long as I'm trying my best, and doing the best I can, every outside thought about me can never alter the inside.
This is going to be such a hard week. A great week, but a hard one.
I never. EVER. would have thought I would have been hit like this.
being treated how I believe every girl in this world deserves to be treated
I never would have thought I would be so emotional,
and at THAT, be able to have so many emotions going through me at once. My mind is blank, yet so much has gone through it today, I couldn't tell you one thing I was supposed to learn at school today.
What keeps grounding me when I start to feel like a failure in school, though, is the fact that
"we're all gonna die eventually anyway"
hahah
school will work itself out. life will work itself out.
Even though money may be wasted.. energy may be wasted. Life will keep going. And having that knowledge is truly what seems to be so important right now.
I have finally started to understand how little it matters what people think of you.
How, as long as you are trying your hardest to be your best self, no other thought, or word, or persecution can alter you.
You tried your best. You're giving as much as you can.
As long as I'm trying my best, and doing the best I can, every outside thought about me can never alter the inside.
This is going to be such a hard week. A great week, but a hard one.
I never. EVER. would have thought I would have been hit like this.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
do it all again
WHAT.A.WEEK.
It seemed to just be going by, then before I know it, it's Saturday !
I find that the more I interact with people, the more chances I get to try and be a good example-and the more chances I get to try and be a good example, the more I can better myself.
wow what a concept lia. o.o.
It's so insane how much there is to learn about yourself every single day.
I didn't think there was so much to me, or to simply humans hahh
but every single person has their ability to mold into the exact person they see themselves being comfortable with
whether it be physically, or mentally/emotionally.
Crazy!
I'm sitting here and my mind just went completely blank. hahhhah I feel like such an airhead right now
:/
I just love the way life can go if you do the things that need to be done.
Or just rely on the Lord to guide you to do what you need to.
Yesterday I got my very first cavities filled, and me being the calm and under controlled person I am, I saw the 2-inch needle for my shot and was all, 'WHOOOAAAAAAA what is THATT!!?' hah
smooth.
instead of relying on God, I took that second to freak out. even though i should 'fear God, not man'
but it's lessons like those that kind of help steer me BACK into the right direction, to know what I should be doing, and who I should be trusting in.
I shouldn't even be planning anything. It hasn't gotten me anywhere in the past really. Because if I plan on something that isn't my will, what if it steers me into an entirely different life that is not nearlyy as good as the life I could be living by God's plan ?
ya digg !
I don't try to get all churchy on every blog..and I really did not think I would this time.
But it's all that matters to me now. At least if I'm one-dimensional, I'm one-dimensional with a purpose. hah
It seemed to just be going by, then before I know it, it's Saturday !
I find that the more I interact with people, the more chances I get to try and be a good example-and the more chances I get to try and be a good example, the more I can better myself.
wow what a concept lia. o.o.
It's so insane how much there is to learn about yourself every single day.
I didn't think there was so much to me, or to simply humans hahh
but every single person has their ability to mold into the exact person they see themselves being comfortable with
whether it be physically, or mentally/emotionally.
Crazy!
I'm sitting here and my mind just went completely blank. hahhhah I feel like such an airhead right now
:/
I just love the way life can go if you do the things that need to be done.
Or just rely on the Lord to guide you to do what you need to.
Yesterday I got my very first cavities filled, and me being the calm and under controlled person I am, I saw the 2-inch needle for my shot and was all, 'WHOOOAAAAAAA what is THATT!!?' hah
smooth.
instead of relying on God, I took that second to freak out. even though i should 'fear God, not man'
but it's lessons like those that kind of help steer me BACK into the right direction, to know what I should be doing, and who I should be trusting in.
I shouldn't even be planning anything. It hasn't gotten me anywhere in the past really. Because if I plan on something that isn't my will, what if it steers me into an entirely different life that is not nearlyy as good as the life I could be living by God's plan ?
ya digg !
I don't try to get all churchy on every blog..and I really did not think I would this time.
But it's all that matters to me now. At least if I'm one-dimensional, I'm one-dimensional with a purpose. hah
Sunday, April 4, 2010
General Conference 2010
If you don't know what it is, go to beta.lds.org, and you can look up all of the talks by the presidency.
The have given talks on finding true happiness, not judging others, overcoming trials, life after death, and SO MANY MORE that will allllways, always, ALWAYS be able to lead me in the right direction
this year has just left me at
a loss for words, at how this gospel really works. how important it is in every single thing I do and say, and how I look at every trial that comes my way.
"Never let an earthly circumstance deliver you spiritually."
"With hope, order can emerge out of chaos."
What simple things people can say, yet at the time and situations you are going through in life mean so much!
It has broughten me to tears, how good my Heavenly Father has been to me, when I make mistakes every single day.
I don't mean to be.. Book of Mormon-thumping ? or whatever they call it.
I'm gonna be okay. I have not been given anything I cannot handle, nor has anyone.
And even though 'times is gettin tougher', we've been put in this life AT THIS TIME for a VERY.important reason. I know I'm not the brightest, but this much I do know.
No matter what, "Our 'duty' is to use all of our power for good, as has been done for us."
The have given talks on finding true happiness, not judging others, overcoming trials, life after death, and SO MANY MORE that will allllways, always, ALWAYS be able to lead me in the right direction
this year has just left me at
a loss for words, at how this gospel really works. how important it is in every single thing I do and say, and how I look at every trial that comes my way.
"Never let an earthly circumstance deliver you spiritually."
"With hope, order can emerge out of chaos."
What simple things people can say, yet at the time and situations you are going through in life mean so much!
It has broughten me to tears, how good my Heavenly Father has been to me, when I make mistakes every single day.
I don't mean to be.. Book of Mormon-thumping ? or whatever they call it.
I'm gonna be okay. I have not been given anything I cannot handle, nor has anyone.
And even though 'times is gettin tougher', we've been put in this life AT THIS TIME for a VERY.important reason. I know I'm not the brightest, but this much I do know.
No matter what, "Our 'duty' is to use all of our power for good, as has been done for us."
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