I'm not a very interesting person..
i've never written anything or said anything where people have heard it and said, 'wow..she's interesting!'
and i couldn't think of anything to put for my title.
so Hello.

Today was general conference instead of church
and for the first time ..ever,
I sat in my room and watched just about the entire thing today.

There was a talk given by our prophet, President Thomas S Monson, about service, and he said:
"Those who save their lives for themselves eventually shrivel up. One's greatest accomplishment comes from serving others."
He ALSO. went on and said:
"You will never feel regret for being kind. We are the Lord's hands to do what is right."

Thinking and stressing day after day about whether I should go on a mission had me go over sooo0 many things I'd be giving up..
my family
.dance.
school
my job
my friend..(s) ..hahha

and then I watched this talk, and to think that there are 500 new missionaries entering the training center every Wednesday makes me realize

that these things are always gonna be there. other missionaries realize this, and I'm SURE a lot of them have more to leave behind than I do..
it's hard being sooo completely connected to the only place you've grown up in all your life. but i am a grown-up now.
i need to do this for sumbody else. this has not one thing to do with me, other than the fact that i am needed to get this work done.

The prophet was not only talking about service for a mission, he was just talking about it in general. He says that every day we should ask ourselves, "what did I do for someone today?" because there is ALLLways. something to do for someone else. we are given the instruments and blessings to be able to bless and help others.
"Because I have been given much, I too must give."

not to get all preach-y or anything hah, but it makes sense.

but ANYway ! so i got a letter from a missionary on friday, and it helps me out S0 much getting these letters. i feel like there's someone else out there in this church that I can actually relate to..
not that i can't relate to a lot of people here, but i feel like i actually have a friend .
....
good feeling ! i feel like i'm being brought up more than down


i feel reallyy really good today.
i feel like i have something to offer other people
whether it be help, or something as simple as a smile
i think everyone has sumthing positive to offer everybody else,

and maybe we just need to take the step and actually make it happen. its so easy to let yourself be intimidated by other people
but being bold can really. be a good thing !


ANYway.
halloween's coming up. i'm beYOND glad its fall..it took forever. to get through the summer, but we made it



LAND HO!
hahhaha

ANYway. m not that good of a writer.. or a talker..
but it's a good thing i don't have friends to expect me to be either ! hahh

im gonna go take a shower and act like its christmastime in my 5 dolla sweats..
this is problly as cold as its gonna get hahah

the church is true!
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