never in my life

never would have thought I would be right here
being treated how I believe every girl in this world deserves to be treated

I never would have thought I would be so emotional,
and at THAT, be able to have so many emotions going through me at once. My mind is blank, yet so much has gone through it today, I couldn't tell you one thing I was supposed to learn at school today.
What keeps grounding me when I start to feel like a failure in school, though, is the fact that
"we're all gonna die eventually anyway"
hahah
school will work itself out. life will work itself out.
Even though money may be wasted.. energy may be wasted. Life will keep going. And having that knowledge is truly what seems to be so important right now.

I have finally started to understand how little it matters what people think of you.
How, as long as you are trying your hardest to be your best self, no other thought, or word, or persecution can alter you.
You tried your best. You're giving as much as you can.

As long as I'm trying my best, and doing the best I can, every outside thought about me can never alter the inside.

This is going to be such a hard week. A great week, but a hard one.
I never. EVER. would have thought I would have been hit like this.